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Sunday, March 30, 2008

Losing Focus .. And trying to find it again

I haven' t updated this blog in a while and I have hit a patch where I am in a funk. Due to craziness going on in my personal life. My training time has taken a hit. I am not as focused as I used to be. I haven't worked out consistently in about a few months. Chaos and disorder has consumed me right about now and I am having a hard time making sense of everything.

I have a list of things I would like to accomplish before I croak, ala the 'Bucket List'. I try to read the list daily, I haven't opened in a few weeks and I realize that is the time I kind of fell off my training regimen. Goal # 7 on my list - "Be a Kung Fu Master and a Martial Arts Scholar" seems like a far off dream right now. I look at the progress I have made in 6 years of study and look at the progress I would have to make in order to get to my goal and it seems almost impossible. I always have to remind myself that the journey is the key. I have to take baby steps to get there. Training hasn't got to the point where it seems more like a chore than anything else and I enjoy it, even when my muscles are screaming in agony and I feel like a masochist because I am still having fun. Yet lately my motivation is lacking, I haven't stuck to my regular training schedule and I feel like I am losing my timing and conditioning. I am so caught up in the other stuff going on with me that my training is going on the back burner. Every time I think of training, I come up with excuses why I can't.

Well, it is time to get re-dedicated to my goals. Focus on the big picture and try to acheive the small victories, sticking to a training schedule, trying to get past plateaus and times when I feel like I want to quit.